new year's resolution 2008

generally i find resolutions to be stupid...BUT i need to expel these thoughts somehow, and so they're gonna come in the form of some resolutions for myself for 2008.

i am so fucking sick and tired of the hype surrounding weight loss and weight loss products and everything having to do with losing weight. all the tv and radio ads (particularly in resolution-making season) seem to be centered around the epitomical goal of fat-reducing.

"how dare you be fat you fucking pig! your life will not start until you lose those 20 pounds...so buy our stupid fucking shit and send yourself into a tumult of self-loathing and dissatisfaction until you give up, pig out and then come back and buy some more of our stupid fucking shit so that you can lose weight and be worthy of your personhood. and if you fail....well, we'll forgive you as long as you cry, admit to feeling deeply ashamed of yourself, and apologize profusely for your general existence."

i will not apologize.
i will not laugh at fat jokes.
i will speak up when i hear off-color remarks that offend me.
i will not act as if losing weight were the greatest accomplishment a person (particularly a woman) can have.
i will not talk about anyone's weight (too much, too little) in any negative terms.
i will refrain from evaluating peoples' physical appearances and will instead focus on getting to know the soul that lives in the body.
i will continue doing things that make me feel good...such as working out at the gym...because they make me feel good. simple as that.
i will never count calories
I AM PROUD.
i will wear my skin with the pride i feel in my soul.

so there you have it.
i am so fucking sick of listening to people (especially women) evaluating their self worth in terms of pounds and inches. it's sad, limiting and painful...and contagious. i can't help but feel self-doubt and self-disdain sometimes when seeing my reflection. this must stop. this is not healthy, it is not productive, and i refuse to accept it as a part of being a woman.

this year i want to work on filling and exercising my soul. health and well-being are holistic endeavors, and i will put my everything into the experience.

happy 2008!